Same Difference

It's been a while since I've posted, and that's because of a good reason, and a few bad reasons. After I left my parents' shop the last time, my mother said she went back and cleaned out more. She estimated that she threw away 80% of her aunt's things that were in the other room. That makes me hopeful. On the other hand, I worked with my parents on a filming location out of state the other day, and it was brutal. I rode in with my father, and I knew my mother would passive-aggressively argue with me to get me to ride home with her. During the job itself, it was very disorganized, both on my parents' part and the client/talent's. I'm still getting reports from my boyfriend that he is distracted in the unprofessional environment. He likened his experience to, if I had to hear my current supervisors bicker non-stop in front of me, to the point that I couldn't do anything productive. Very frustrating.

My life has also had a plot-twist that is keeping me very busy and a little stressed. I have yet to hear back on a single resume that I have sent out, country-wide. It's depressing, and making me feel very vulnerable. The stress comes from pressure I feel to make the decision, "to move or not to move." If I get a job out of state, we move. If I don't, we can't move. In my current job's meetings I've been fighting for a little recognition, and lately, I've been hearing rumors that I might see my extended temporary position extended again, for the next academic year. This could be a very good thing. We still have to find a home in the next two months, but at least we have a direction. I will continue applying elsewhere, but it's good to know that I have a backup (hopefully).

The possibility of staying another year means something else, too. It means I can/might/could/will/may help my parents clean out for a longer period of time. The impending deadline of July isn't really there anymore, but I doubt it was really helping anyway. I guess we'll see, and I'll take things as they come for right now.